I don’t really keep track of time, it seem so irrelevant being a vampire. What is time to a being who can not age, where the world passes them by. I been alive for so long now and it feels so maddening. I thought it was what I wanted, but the love got complicated and then I found myself spending more time alone. I watched the infection spread throughout the years, such an infection needs to be cut out or burned. I looked for answers, in hopes to help the one I loved once to come back, but what I found I fear they couldn’t understand. I walked a path they likely couldn’t follow or refuse to follow. I have come to terms that this path is likely going to result to my final death, but if it means my goal is complete then so be it.

I write after years of being on this journey and I know I start off the same most of the time. Ranting of past and such, I have secrets. No one cares much anymore, I am seen as a madman, a lunatic, crazy priest. I hunt priest for my cause, because they are already train in devoting their lives to a cause, I simply fix this cause. The council doesn’t know I have several fledglings running about, they think I kill them all, but the jokes on them. I only kill the weak, the ones who can not handle or understand the cause. Lilith, the true ruler, our mother. Most get it wrong or they give up, but there have been those who showed proof, who joined and understood.

When I have secured my fledgling in the place I am at, I merely pick up and move. Leaving them to continue my work out of sight and if any ask, their sire is unknown to them. It is so easy a lie, with that one vampire turning fledglings like its a addiction. I bet they gives the council a headache, I know they don’t know who it is. I think I will try to follow that foot step in keeping the council guessing. I should thank them, for making it easy for my fledglings able to hide. I know the council would NEVER accept them. I am very sure they kill any fledgling I have. It would pain me to know that my once lover executes my legacy. What would likely be what is left of me by the end of this, if I am lucky to see the end.

I am almost done here, he has come to understand the cause and knows what must be done. I will be heading close to where the council is, but I will trust my lover will protect me…. if he still cares. Once done there, I will go to Spain to mold a new fledgling for Salazar, I respect his cause, he knows and sees the infection. I know he will elevate my fledgling there and help them achieve their goal. He thinks I should go to Spain instead, but I know where I must go, plus I just need to see him. Even if we are not what we were and he can not respect my vision or who I always have been, I do care about him, even if he is my end.