“He gave his heart to his guests,only for it to be meaningless; And so he grew cold, never for love to have its hold “
It was only a few years after he was turned, he had adapted to his new circus family well. Even if this group did devious things, he assume since it wasn’t humans that it was normal. This was his new normal, he was sad to never see his old family, but he kept up with news on them. Plus Beelze wasn’t too bad, despite wanting him to be lucrative and willing to sell himself to their more deviant patrons. He still got to perform, be a clown and have fun. So he wasn’t too upset, hell one of their deviant clients kept coming back.
It started with repeating service, then he started asking questions to Bazzle. Questions like “How did you feel after your sire ditch you? Why clowns? Have you always been with the circus?” Bazzle was perplexed by the questions. However he answered them, giving name and why he loved being a clown. Mind you Bazzle found these questions weird because the man paid for sex. So why was he making it personal? It was awkward to Bazzle, most rather him scream their name (they paid extra for that) or just the general sounds.
Eventually the man paid Beezle to have Bazzle the whole week after the shows. Beezle milked him for all he could, since the guy was fascinated with the clown. So the show went on and everyone was doing their best in their act. Bazzle went on with all the clowns, him and a demon clown made the best team and tended to be a favorite. Though everyone all preferred the siren act best, she was the star of the whole show and the final act. Bazzle headed back stage as she in her tank got wheeled out. Beezle had Bazzle come to his office.
“A new client?” He ask Beelze. Usually was the reason he get ask to be there.
“No…its your returning one. He paid for you, for the whole week. However you are one of my best performers so if he roughs you up or gets too weird, tell me and he will be dealt with.” Beelze looks to the clown.
“Oh…the whole week? Weird…but ok. Might be boring shacking with the same bloke.” He jest .
Beelze however wasn’t laughing “he paid well for you, to have you outside the cirus grounds.”
Bazzle blinks and rubbed his shoulder, he hadn’t really left the grounds, since that day he woke turned and burned. “Oh.”
“If you do not feel comfortable, you don’t have to go. I just hate to have to refund him. Though again he tries anything that would hurt you, i will make him regret it.”
“No its fine, I just…Its fine. I guess i could see the city.”Bazzle figure he just be in a hotel room or the guys place.
Bazzle went to go meet with the man, he was rather beautiful. He wore the finest fashion of the mid 1800’s. He look to Bazzle “ah good, you can wash up and put those on. pointing to clothes he got the clown. This made Bazzle abit uncomfortable, he didn’t like being out of makeup. However he did pay, so Bazzle move to wash his face up and redid his hair and pulling it back.
He put on the clothes the man got and wasn’t sure of it, he thought it constricting to his body. The man looked at Bazzle and smiled “I knew you look good in those. Alright come on.” He move out the tent.
Bazzle blinks some and followed him confused as they got into the carriage. They go to the city, he was anxious and looked out the window. The man place a hand on Bazzles thigh “We are going out to eat, it isn’t anything bad.”
Well now Bazzles more confused “I can’t eat food.” He told him, to which the male laughed. “Oh no its not a human place, since we are both Vampires I thought it be better if we went to a place I know for blood.”
Bazzle just stared at this man “And then we fuck? Are we like fucking in public or like back alley?”
The man smiled “no, no sex tonight. I want to drink blood and enjoy your company.”
“You can enjoy my company back at the circus, we have blood. Why do we have to go to the city?”
The man sighs “Oh Bazzle, if i thought you as just some being to have sex with yes that make sense, but I like you. I want to see if maybe I show you new things, you get to know me, maybe you like me too.”
“You bought me for a week because you like me? Why didn’t you just ask me to come out?” Bazzle ask, knowing damn well he decline and the man knew too, why he paid. The man smirked at the clown. They waited till they got to the place and he took Bazzle into the building. They take stairs down and to a room requiring to know a password, to which thr man spoke it. Once in Bazzle saw a new world indeed. The only Vampires Bazzle been around were in the circus, this was different and yet familiar to his home. People enjoying themselves in corner cubbies, hidden by thin sheer curtains. You could see silhouettes of what they do. They moved on down to the more reserved area, where people talk and grazed their fangs on blood dolls that waited to be fed on.
The man gesture for Bazzle to sit and so he did awkwardly, looking around. He saw many people, even a well dressed male with blonde hair. When the male glance at him, he felt like he was hit with ice. This man definitely commanded respect and it intimidated Bazzle for sure as he quickly adverted his eyes. The man had a male brought over, who got on their knees between them. “Please you must be atarving after performing.”
Bazzle was unsure, but when the tilted his head to expose neck he thought on it. Though he grabbed the male wrist and bit him there. This was new experience, seems he was around alot of Vampires. The male smiled to Bazzle “Have you ever explored the city?” He ask.
“No i tend to just stay at the circus. Never really had a reason to want to leave. I guess I should ask questions then. How long have you been a Vampire?” Bazzle watches the male.
“Oh its been almost three hundred years at this point. He answered “So have you ever wanted to see anything in the city?”
Bazzle listen and then just shook his head “Not really.” He then watch the man bite the blood doll. It was pretty hot to watch, bazzle shifted as the male to the others head cradling it as they bit into their neck. The blood doll breathing hitched as they enjoy the bite.
“Sooo what brought you to the circus?” Bazzle ask, to break the awkwardness of watching the male eat.
The male sat back and adjusted his coat “Oh I was there on business and then I saw you perform and that was a plus.” He grinned.
Bazzle just stared at him, he then ask “Well whats your name?” Figures it can’t stay one sided.
“William. What is your real name?” William ask the clown
“It’s Bazzle.”
“Oh I thought that was a stage name, I didn’t realize it was an actual name.” William leans back.
There was an awkward silence now, Bazzle gazing about, though never looking at the other Vampire. William watched Bazzle “You should take the whole week off, there is alot I like to show you.”
Bazzle made a face “No way, I love performing. Besides why do you just want to show me things?”
William chuckles “Im trying to court you. You dont make it easy. “
Bazzle look confused “Court me? Why?”
“Because I like you, I been trying to get to know you, however you stay busy so I had to buy your time it seems. Of course maybe if you like me back, I wont have to and you will just want to spend time together.” William explains.
Bazzle had never had a love interest before, so this was new. He wasn’t sure, he thought about it as he shift “You want to be with me, more then a paid night? Are you trying to get freebies here?”
William chuckles “No, we don’t have to have sex. We can just talk, go for a walk. Have you have walked in the park?”
“No I haven’t. I dont really go out much or anything. I suppose it couldn’t be bad” Bazzle pondered the idea, but William got up and grabbed Bazzles hand. Leading him out of the place and down the street. “Why did we leave? Where are we going now?”
William was quiet, just pulling Bazzle to him. Leading the clown around the city to the park. They would stroll through it at a casual pace, looking about. “Well?”
Bazzle looked around as they walked, seeing the flowers and nocturnal animals. This wasn’t bad, it was rather beautiful. “This noce, I’ve never really seen anything like it. The flowers are pretty.”
“I told you, knew you would like it. Dont worry Im going to be showing things you never knew you would like.” William told Bazzle. The clown watched the vampire and arch a brow, but the guy seem nice so he give a smile. He sort of lean into the guy some as they walked, he was right, Bazzle was enjoying the park.
Eventually they returned to the circus and Willaim smiled “I’ll see you tomorrow then. I already have the evening planned, you will love it.”
Bazzle smiled some “Ok then. I’ll see you after the show then.”
“Make sure to wash up, I’ll have a new outfit for you as well.” William stated.
Bazzle gave a nod to him “Oh ok then.”
As the week went on Bazzle would change clothes and go out with William, even after the week was up, seeing different things, they even went to a few pubs. They grew close, Bazzle grew closer and closer to William. He felt happy, though not truly happy there was something off and he wasn’t sure what it was. He did miss hanging out with his circus friends and family, William never would hang around there it was always with his people and not Bazzle and doing what he wanted and never truly what Bazzle wanted. After a few months of dating, William finally got Bazzle to take a night off from performing and took him out to get all dolled up and made over. Afterwards he took him to see a play, they met up with some people. He saw the blonde headed Vampire again as William was talking to them all. He felt very uncomfortable around him, this man scared him and he wasn’t sure why.
“Ok its time for us to take out seats.” William said as he ushers Bazzle in, they took their seats. The show began and William whispers “Now we can watch real performers.” Those words just cutting at Bazzle for some reason. As the show went on William kept making comments like “Such talent, thats real talent there, just true art.” and every word cut deeper and deeper. Once the play was over William stook up “Now that was a show.” walking Bazzle out of the theater and Bazzle wasn’t happy. He kept dwelling on the words William said. It was as if William forgot he was a performer or he was purposely talking this way to put his circus down. William looks to Bazzle “You should stay with me tonight, don’t go back there. Should just come live with me, you deserve so much more.”
Bazzle stared at William ” Excuse me? I do have more, I am happy with my circus. We are real art and talent and just great. Like I been trying to figure out what is off and I realize it is you. You are trying to change me and I do not need to be changed.”
William looked confused “I am trying to give you a real life, with happiness. I do alot for you and you are being ungrateful. You should be part of the real world, not in some dark tent.”
“You meant he world that decided to reject me at birth? That world? No thanks. The circus raised me and accepted me when your world wouldn’t so No, fuck you. I don’t need this. I don’t need you.” Bazzle snaps, he turn to leave.
William reach to grab Bazzle shoulder to say something back, but Bazzle punch him square in the face and stalked off. He left William reeling on the ground. He would go to head back to Beelze and took all the outfits William had him wear and took them to one of the fire barrels they had going to one and threw them in it to burn. Beezle would see Bazzle return in a sour mood. ” What has happen?”
“He was trying to take me from here and from being a clown, like I need help. What an asshole. I’m never leaving my life, this is where I belong and I am happy here.” Bazzle explains.
Beelze gave a thoughtful nod “You will never have to see him ever again. I will make sure of it.”
Bazzle gave a nod and move back to his tent as he swear off love and never ever to try that again. He wasted so much time for someone who wanted to change who he was. He wasn’t standing for it, he just stick to his paid fucking and that was it, no personal questions and no small talks.